Midnight again

I seem to be at some crossroad.  Except the crossroad and I have not met yet.  I am wide awake, AGAIN, at midnight.  I went to bed at 9:30, but right before midnight for the past couple of days, my eyes will just pop open. It really puts a girl in a GREAT mood.  Which leads to confusion and worry.  Because, I know, too well, that nothing happens by chance.  So, I figure it is a crossroad, just waiting to be sprung on me.