A Mama's Love

My Mama rocks.  Seriously.  My step-mama rocks too. Seriously.  I am totally lucky.  I have 2 rockin mama's.

My hubbers has his mama.  I love her bunches too. She is pretty jazzy.  Did I always think so, yes and no.  There are days that we differ on many different things.  She is a die hard catholic.  I am a too, but I am a little more liberal in my beliefs.  She is pretty conservative.  Seeing eye to eye on that, causes some anxiety for her.  :)  But, overall she rocks.

When I married her son, MY mama pulled me over to the side and told me to NEVER forget how much she loves me and that HIS mama feels the exact same way about him.  No matter what, I should never forget that.  To make every effort to keep those bonds strong and their relationship close.  I have done what my Mama siad, even when we had difficulties.  No road is devoid of bumps.  But, they are overcome in time, and ultimately make us all better for them.

I remembered that the day I became a Mama.  I understood exactly how much my Mama loved me and exactly how much his Mama loved him. 

So, no matter what differences we have, that love is constant. 

I would kill to protect my baby from harm.  Just like my Mama would do for me and my sisters.  Just like my step-Mama would do for me, my sisters and my brothers.  Just like Mama in law would do for my husband.

Thank Goodness for my Mama's.

Love and Hate

I had to delete someone from my Facebook page this week. She was someone from my high school days. Not a friend, but not an enemy. Just someone. She has her opinions and I have mine. She tends to get very riled up over politics, religion, weather... You name it, she has a problem with it.

I didn't have a problem with her rants, she has freedom of speech behind her and she wasn't being cruel. Not specifically. Well, not by name anyway.

But this week she joined - the I hate Obama because he likes gays wagon. She used our catholic faith as her wagon of choice and there, she crossed a line.

See, I have a problem with anyone who can truly say they are a religious person, but HATE an entire group of people because of who they LOVE.

That is it. That is the core of people who are against homosexuals. They are against love.

LOVE is the greatest force on earth. It's cousin HATE..right behind her. To hate so fully...With a passion that rivals all that is in your soul. That is a lot of energy that is being shoved out into the world. And we wonder why it comes flying back to us so much.

Every negative thought or action you take eventually makes it way back to you. Love is the same way.

I don't give a rats ass what the bible says about marriage. Love is love. Period. If you are lucky enough to find it, hold the hell onto it. Purple, brown, green,black, white, gay, atheist... Whatever the hell you are. There is nothing more precious.

And.....
I am pretty sure when God said love thy neighbor, he meant everyone.

I don't hate people who spread the hate around. I feel sorry for them and I pray for them. To hate so many people over whom they love... how tragic a life.

So, I deleted her not because of her statements, but rather the hate.

There is enough hate in this wicked and wonderful world and I didn't need a front row seat this week for it.

"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."
JK Rowling

Choose LOVE. Always choose love over hate. Always.

Eating Crow

I have never claimed to be perfect.  More like perfectly flawed. :)

I had a situation occur in the Fall, that had my daughter hurt.  Her feelings hurt.  It was hard to watch and I acted like a Mama lion and came roaring out.

I made comments about the teacher who had hurt her on Facebook.  I was sooooo noble....(sarcasm)
I didn't say her name, but I was brutal and cruel.  No matter how noble I THOUGHT I was, ultimately, I was an ass.  I took a situation that should have been dealt with maturely and turned it into a playground fight.

I am exactly like all the people, who I despise, who do this.  I was totally convinced that I was right, but deep down....cruelty doesn't need to be spread around.  There is enough already.  I added to the horrible pile and called it justification.

Many things have occurred because of those comments.  Some things were done by other people.  Their actions speak about them. Just as mine spoke about me.  If nothing else--- Karma is a bitch.  I put negativity and ugliness out into the universe and it came back with a vengeance.

I recently attempted to make ammends with the woman who I hurt.  I don't agree with how she handled the situation, but knowing that I made it WORSE, made we re-evaluate.

If I am to teach my daughter about forgiveness and honor, I need to SHOW her this.  Only then will I have been a good mother.

So, eating crow SUCKS.  But, it was and IS the right thing to do.  For me it was as necessary as breathing.  I need to be able to smile at the girl in the mirror.  :)

Lessons and Energy

I learned a truly valuable lesson.  I didn't really enjoy it at the time, but I see the wonderful benefits now.

I have decided to "Send light and love out".

Meaning, when I feel a bit...OVERtaxed by people.  ie-pissed off beyond what my brain can handle.  I will send out feelings of love and healing light to surround them. 

Sending out negative and unwanted feelings allows the universe to send them right on back to me.  Unacceptable.  So, if happiness is necessary on the return, then it is vital in the output.

Is it easy? Hell no.  I spend ALOT of time saying this phrase.  I told my hubs that I was convinced that I was an angry elf -- from the south pole. :)

I sometimes say the phrase through my teeth and quite a few times it has been "I send light and f*in love out.

Mother Theresa I am not.

What I am, is someone who knows that the greatest blessing and tool that I have at my disposal is the ability to love. 

How I use that tool will ultimately determine my path.

So----

I send you all light and love today.

Make today count.